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My only friends are brightly coloured
of every shade and pigment of the spectrum
I have autistic spectrum disorder
I see things of a different order
my social skills are mediocre
but I am learning
my eye contact is evasive
but I am still learning
to be me is a joy and a curse
a blessing in disguise
everyone sees through me
when I am in a crowd
but are blocked out when I am alone
my anxieties are laid bare
but no one cares
they make fun of me
inside my head and outside of it
what is reality
when fantasy intertwines often
and leaves both a blur and me in a daze
to be the sun is to shine bright
to be the moon is to be encumbered by the night
I feel like I am both
two halves make a whole
to halves make me who I am
but I can only be me and no one else
I live for the dark, but shine in the light
just like a rubix cube I am solvable
but by the softest hands and the most gentle of rotations
Not one can say they are me
when my shoes only fit me
and me alone
walk down my path
it is long and bare
overgrown and splitting in cracks
I feel split when I am asleep
but whole when I am awake
just like a date
I chicken out
and hide
just like from the world
and its prying eyes
I give in to the sublime
when the wave washes over
I feel over, I feel done
but nothing was done alone
but with many hands, as it makes light work
The light is hard to find when all you know is darkness
the rainbow will shine one day
I can already feel it
but it lays dormant for now
until I unleash my bright personality
and my bright smile
every once in a while
It should be more often
It should be more frequent
like a tv channel
it channels deep and it holds on tight
what might be will be, one day
when I am less afraid and less scared
of what isn't there and what isn't real
@kimsguardian
@Nara
@Misa
@Vampire
@Ackerman
@Idol Killer
@rosie
@Seriously
@Seunghee's Eyebrows
of every shade and pigment of the spectrum
I have autistic spectrum disorder
I see things of a different order
my social skills are mediocre
but I am learning
my eye contact is evasive
but I am still learning
to be me is a joy and a curse
a blessing in disguise
everyone sees through me
when I am in a crowd
but are blocked out when I am alone
my anxieties are laid bare
but no one cares
they make fun of me
inside my head and outside of it
what is reality
when fantasy intertwines often
and leaves both a blur and me in a daze
to be the sun is to shine bright
to be the moon is to be encumbered by the night
I feel like I am both
two halves make a whole
to halves make me who I am
but I can only be me and no one else
I live for the dark, but shine in the light
just like a rubix cube I am solvable
but by the softest hands and the most gentle of rotations
Not one can say they are me
when my shoes only fit me
and me alone
walk down my path
it is long and bare
overgrown and splitting in cracks
I feel split when I am asleep
but whole when I am awake
just like a date
I chicken out
and hide
just like from the world
and its prying eyes
I give in to the sublime
when the wave washes over
I feel over, I feel done
but nothing was done alone
but with many hands, as it makes light work
The light is hard to find when all you know is darkness
the rainbow will shine one day
I can already feel it
but it lays dormant for now
until I unleash my bright personality
and my bright smile
every once in a while
It should be more often
It should be more frequent
like a tv channel
it channels deep and it holds on tight
what might be will be, one day
when I am less afraid and less scared
of what isn't there and what isn't real
@kimsguardian
@Nara
@Misa
@Vampire
@Ackerman
@Idol Killer
@rosie
@Seriously
@Seunghee's Eyebrows