Random Thoughts

hatmixx · Nov 27, 2020

Chococo said:
No one has ever loved me in my life and that's okay, I guess.
People come and go from my life constantly, but no one ever sticks long around me.
I feel so alone. I literally have no friends .I literally have no one to go to.
I guess I am really that unlovable after all. I was never meant to be. I was never good enough for anyone no matter what I do.
Sometimes I really wish I was never born or even alive. I don't want that anymore. I am just a fucking failure and waking up each day is just becoming more and more exhausting.
One day I will get my wish and everything will be okay. The world will be a much happier place.

i hope things get better for you :tears:

Polaris_Tae · Nov 27, 2020

Mail delivery on a Saturday?!!! What has the world come to...

:okbye:

Polaris_Tae · Nov 27, 2020

Me, an Australian: I think spiders are neat ~~
Also me: sees this goddamn tweet
Time to fuck off to Japan

:okbye:

Lilac · Nov 28, 2020

Enjoyed leftover apple pie from Thanksgiving :poggers:

tokki · Nov 29, 2020

only a few more weeks

Cinna · Nov 29, 2020

reading 3 books concurrently is insane for me

Polaris_Tae · Nov 30, 2020

Watching food-themed movies makes me hungry :poggers:

unicorn · Nov 30, 2020

Polaris_Tae said:
Watching food-themed movies makes me hungry

are you watching food wars :poggers:

Polaris_Tae · Nov 30, 2020

unicorn said:
are you watching food wars

Nope, some US movie called "Chef" starring Jon Favreau. Food Wars is next on my food-themed tv binge though! :poggers:

unicorn · Nov 30, 2020

Polaris_Tae said:
Nope, some US movie called "Chef" starring Jon Favreau. Food Wars is next on my food-themed tv binge though!

i just realized that you said movie, for some reason i read it as anime lol thats why i just assume you're watching food wars :TzuyuKek:

i have not watch the newest season but i do enjoy the anime :LovePar:

anime food always look so good

xiaothink · Nov 30, 2020

Polaris_Tae · Nov 30, 2020

I LOVE MY NEW SET!!!

:palove:

Polaris_Tae · Dec 1, 2020

The fact that HJSN dropped this performance mere WEEKS before disbandment was INSANE!!!
It's honestly one of their best performances. HJSN girl crush, when...

Happy · Dec 1, 2020

I want to buy Borderlands 3 but I don't think my PC can handle it :feelsblankie:

Chococo · Dec 1, 2020

Cinna · Dec 1, 2020

I reverse all the unhealthy choices I made today by pounding green tea.

Beefy · Dec 1, 2020

Back to back high quality albums being released all in the span of two days. They’ve literally made me the happiest girl alive, I can’t believe this :sejeongcry:

Chococo · Dec 2, 2020

You know what? I disliked 2020 so much for what it gave me. When I went into 2020, I wanted it for it to be the best year.
I've faced so many downs. My anxiety has been heavy. My depression told me that I might not survive. Screw all of this.
But this last week helped me to realize, it is not so bad. It is actually a pretty good year I've had. I have challenged and done things that I never thought I would be capable of. I realized how strong I am. I finally found the courage in expressing who I am and I no longer want to run away from myself. I am too tired of pretending to be someone I will never be.
I might have failed before but it is because I did not know any better. I might have not succeeded in something only to learn from that and bring it into the present moment.
I am okay. I will be okay.

Happy · Dec 2, 2020

it's been awhile I read a book. Lets see what I'm going to read.

Seriously · Dec 2, 2020