Sorry 4 the late reply. I've got things going on here at my house. My landlord wants 2 sell.
Oh I thought u might be at least in ur 20s because u like Taeyeon. I feel like the 5th gen kids only know about her in a general way and make fun of her plastic surgery.
Also wahhh! Being called sunbae!
Although it's like because u "debuted" on ht b4 me aren't u my sunbae?
And then I'm ur....I don't want to say oppa because that word has been so sexualized but I don't like unnie either. I think I'd only want guys like park hanbin to call me unnie in the gay way.
Though because I'm literally old enough to be ur mom if I had u as a teenager then wouldn't i be ur ajumma?
Gender is weird. I refer 2 myself as my cats muma and use she/her in the third person when I talk 2 them but if someone got me a world's best cat mom mug I wouldn't want it.
So yeah going forward sunbae or ajumma is OK.
That's good that u r almost out of high school. Ppl care a lot less about how u look etc in college.
Hopefully u r able 2 afford it.
That's good that u r getting help. Though I hope u have a good therapist who knows how 2 treat u properly.
I've certainly had my fair share of bad mental health professionals over the years.
I certainly don't want to pry but writing the reasons down and asking if there's anything u can do 2 fix them and whether they r out of ur control or not would be a good start.
like ur weight is within ur control but world politics isn't.
also i don't know how ur parents feel about leaving the us but i have seen a lot of ppl talking about applying 2 Canadian colleges 2 get out of the country.
And if not that then at least going 2 college in a blue state.
i hope u aren't in the deep south.
Journaling also helps. Even if u tear up the pages after.
Ok so obviously I don't want 2 be like where exactly r u in the US including ur address but state wise I know some states r considered more boring than others.
Though I always thought boring states r cool because in books something like getting powers from an alien spaceship always happened in a boring small town.
Is ur life boring because u can't think of fun things to do or is it that u can't afford those things?
Or u don't have friends 2 do them with?
What do the teens even like these days?
Also in general if where u live is safe enough 2 go 4 a stroll then I would suggest short trips to a local park/place with trees. That's something that helps me feel better and that's how I got my cats.
Feeding birds and squirrels is lovely 2.
And yes ur perception of time changes as u age. Though sometimes I feel like it goes by faster now.
oh sweetie. Things 4 sure aren't positive in general because u live in the US. 
