Mental Health Peer Support Thread

[Nimz]

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I’ve been so up and down lately and I just want to give up and hide.

 

[tokki]

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[larme]

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whee slowly getting back on my bullshit again. hoping not to get to the point i'm snapping at people 24/7 again because i'm not eating and feeling like shit all the time, but i hate i feel like it's getting there again. already losing weight fast again and lost a lot of the motivation i had to stay healthy. trying to remind myself i'll be back at home soon, but that really doesn't help when it's literally impossible to escape this miserableness. i don't want to have to stay being dependent on my parents or my only two friends with their own problems either. other people i talk to really could give less than a single fuck which is annoying, but honestly i don't blame them. i try distracting myself, but lol it's just making me feel worse again for the most part.

 

[Nimz]

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I'm tired of trying. I'm obviously never going to be completely happy again. It has been years since I was truly happy. Things need to change or I'm going to fall.

 

[tokki]

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[Aerith]

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I'm just so tired. I'm tired of always being the one to think of everyone else, but it's rarely returned. I think it's time for me to be selfish instead, but that's never how I've been.

 

[Nimz]

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Giving up sounds better. I don’t care anymore.

 

[yerm]

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I really don't see myself accomplishing anything in life, doing anything. I don't even see myself living that long. It's probably for the best.

 

[Nimz]

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The worst part about feeling so bad mentally is having no one to talk to. I need to vent but I don’t want to trouble anyone with what I’m feeling. Plus the fact my “friends” have shown they only care when it’s a problem they have, and only half listen to mine. Guess I’ll deal with it.

 

[Beefy]

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it really sucks when you realize that no one actually gives a shit about you. I could literally drop dead rn and no one would blink an eye or say they miss me. I'm nothing.

 

[soozie]

today has been an awful day, i don't even know what to do anymore

 

[Nimz]

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To deal with so much in so few days, I don’t know how I’m remaining sane. Barely hanging in there. I just want to run and hide somewhere to cry.

 

[BlueNose]

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Today was so shitty only for it to get shittier. if im gonna get hit with brooms, have a knife pointed at me as a threat, and finally told im somewhat of a disappointment. then maybe my next step is very clear
i just want to escape and hide away from everyone
im just so tired and overwhelmed, i wish things could slow down and i do it my own way instead of others inserting themselves into my space and telling me my way is wrong and their way is better
i feel like both sides of my life are falling apart and there's very little i can do to put pieces back together and make things go to the way they were only a short time ago

 

[BlueNose]

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the way everything begins to fall apart at the same time
everything's changing so fast and all at once...

 

[tokki]

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[soozie]

im so exhausted and drained right now and all these bs just make things worse. please just put an end to this and get it over with.

 

[yerm]

No one would even know if I left and never came back

 

[BlueNose]

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i am gettin the point, where i dont care anymore and i just want silence

 

[Beefy]

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I get anxious over stupid shit like I am physically incapable of picking up my phone now without shaking and having a million reasons why I shouldn't text that person back and what could wrong if I spoke to them again. And it sucks because I know they don't give a shit but it still stresses me out. If I reply back will they ignore it and hate me forever? Or do they already feel that way about me?
It's been this way forever and I've sooo many opportunities because I just think of all the shit that could go wrong and nope tf out of it.
Like it's gotten to the point now where I overthink posting on threads......all of the worst outcomes just come to me and I leave. I hate it so much. This is why I have no friends. Because I just can't. Interacting with people stresses me out too much. I'll literally start shaking like a fucking chihuahua.
I'm so scared of someone hating me or if I end embarrassing myself.
I wish my mom would've gotten me counseling after seeing me have a full-blown freak out over a church meeting but alas she hates me.

 

[Nieve]

Been in such a weird place lately and somehow it feels worse each day