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NuguLast three weeks in codomomental (August 25 - September 15)
On September 6, during a sudden solo concert, Seireki13ya announced their disbandment, which will take place after the group’s upcoming major concert at Kinema Club on November 30.
Official statement.Thank you for always supporting Seireki13ya. This is the group’s management.
We are informing you that Seireki13ya will disband on November 30, after the concert at Kinema Club.
Debuting on December 15, 2018, and having once gone through a period of hiatus, Seireki13ya resumed their activities on November 25, 2022, thanks to the support of the "Night Minions" and other related parties, and have vigorously continued their journey since then. However, after discussions with each member about the future, we have decided to disband the group.
We sincerely apologize for the suddenness of this announcement.
We also would like to express our deepest gratitude to all the "Night Minions" and others who have supported us throughout this time.
During the remaining time of our activities, we want to give our all to the concerts, pouring all our feelings of gratitude into them, so we hope you will continue to support Seireki13ya, as well as Nene Komochi, Yui Urari, and Yowa Minai until the very end.
Seireki13ya Management.
On November 30, after the concert at Kinema Club, Seireki13ya will disband.
I’m so grateful that I was able to create so many fun memories with you in this dear place of mine called Seireki13ya.
Please let me express these feelings to you through our concerts, until the very end!!
Thank you, truly, for everything.
From Nene Komochi's Twitter.The kindness with which you acted as if nothing had happened, the kindness with which you cried with me out of sadness, the kindness with which you seriously shared your feelings with me—but not just that, I received so much more kindness from you.
Not only today but many times before this, I received it from many people, from you.
And like this, little by little, thanks to your kindness, I was able to keep moving forward
From Yui Urari's Twitter.Seireki13ya will disband after the solo concert at Kinema Club on November 30.
"Night Minions," I’m sorry for making you sad with this news.
I want to give my all to the concerts until the very end, to make you smile. Let me convey all my love to you.
Seireki13ya will disband after the solo concert on November 30 at Kinema Club.
To everyone who had high hopes for us and supported us—I’m truly sorry.
Even though the group will disband, the memories and music will stay with us forever. I want to be with you until the very end, and I’ll do my best 𓈒𓏸
From Yowa Minai's Twitter.My favorite time is the time we spend together with you~ ෆ
Though we only have a little time left together, I want to spend it with a smile until the very end 𓈒𓏸
Thank you so much for everything ෆ
Fukumoto Emi expressed her feelings about this news through a new illustration depicting the group members:
From Chimura Shifumi's Twitter.When something important ends, or someone leaves, no matter how many times it happens, it's always sad.
But everything we’ve gone through, all the feelings and memories—without a doubt, they are real.
And as long as we remember them, in the truest sense, none of it will ever disappear.
A farewell tour titled Oyasumi kara Asa to Yoru no (おやすみからあさとよるの— a phrase difficult to translate directly, but I would interpret it as "From 'Goodnight' until the Morning and Night's...") was also announced. It will start in October and include 15 performances. During this tour, all of the currently active codomomental groups will join Seireki13ya.
To brighten up this sad news a little, I have prepared a partial translation of the group’s recent livestream. In it, they touch on some serious and interesting topics, like the reason for Soani’s departure and why the number 13 is in the group’s name, but it’s also full of wildly hilarious moments: you’ll learn about Urari’s ability to hear voices when she takes a bath, how Minai teases Komochi after a recent "Zenkimi" stream, how the girls spend their weekends, and more. This stream took place on August 29, and it’s almost certain that by that time, the decision to disband the group had already been made. However, judging by the energy and spirit exuded by the members, they are ready to fully use the remaining time to make the final period in the group’s life as bright as possible.
Despite the upcoming disbandment, during the same stream, the members announced that the group is planning some new endeavors in October.
On September 13, the group held their first livestream since announcing their disbandment, where the girls, of course, touched on this topic as well. Below, you can read Komochi's comment on this matter:
How should I say this, no one likes being depressed, right?
So, I hope we can spend the remaining time we have with smiles.
Yes, we, Seireki13ya, smile. We don't feel sad.
I thought a lot about how to express this, but I couldn’t find the right words.
How should I say it...
There’s no such thing as a positive disbandment, right?
I think so myself.
But at the same time, how should I say... It’s not something negative either.
Life ahead is long, and if you think about living until 80 or 100, there's still so much ahead for us. And for you, too.
And if thanks to Seireki13ya, our future lives and the future lives of all of you, become, how should I say, even more filled with joy, then we could say that the existence of "Seireki" really had meaning.
That’s how I see it. Plus, it’s not over yet.
Many are probably wondering what the future holds for the members after the group disbands. Komochi responded to this:Really, like Minai said: it’s better to have fun than to be sad — we feel this way now more than ever.
We're pumped for all the concerts, with a crazy fire! (using Urari's catchphrase)
After all, this also applies to Minai and Urari, but we’ve already spent quite a lot of time together.
And for this long period of time, every day we thought about "Seireki," right?
There wasn’t a single day when we didn’t think about "Seireki."
Not a single day of slacking off.
Of course, it goes without saying, but we have an audience, people who come to our concerts, and even on days when nothing’s going on, we start a stream, and so many people tune in.
It’s an amazing thing, and because you were with us, there wasn’t a single day I regretted anything.
So, how should I say it, I don’t want anything to change just because it’s coming to an end soon.
Just because the end is near doesn’t mean anything special will happen.
Because all of this has always been special.
Yes, so nothing will change, and we’ll keep giving it our all and enjoying the concerts, so I hope you will also keep coming to our concerts and having fun with the same feelings as before.
Many are also wondering whether the group’s final concert will be filmed. According to Komochi, they would like to, but nothing can be said for sure yet. However, it is planned to at least produce an amateur recording.Surely many want to know about this, but in reality it's still not definitively decided.
Yes, but... It’s not something that should be decided in a rush, right? After all, it concerns our future lives. So it would be nice if everyone could think things through calmly and then announce their decision to you. I’d be happy if you could wait patiently.
The girls also hinted that the group’s new music video is being prepared for release.
Unfortunately, the bad news doesn't end with the disbanding of "Seireki." On September 14, it was announced that Sagara "Hide Bite The Sun" Tsuzura from futatsuna and Ema Amajiki from USOTSUKINAISHO are leaving their respective groups for personal reasons.
From Sagara "Hide Bite The Sun" Tsuzura’s Twitter.To everyone who has always supported me.
I’m sorry that I can no longer be with you.
Although it was only half a year, this short time was packed full of so many memories and happiness. Thank you all.
I will never forget the time I spent with you, and I will always cherish it.
From Chimura "Nine Curse Bullet" Shifumi’s Twitter.Tsuzura is leaving futatsuna. We talked a lot about it, and this is a decision she made herself, so I accept it.
I support her in shining on the path she has chosen for her life.
Thank you for fighting alongside us these past six months⛓
From Tsukumo "St. Lightning Beast" Romi’s Twitter.Though it was such a short time, thank you for being with us as part of futatsuna.
I’ll never forget all the fun we shared together.
From Ema Amajiki’s Twitter.To everyone who has always supported me.
I’m truly sorry that I can no longer move forward with you.
Although it was such a short time, I’m grateful for the many happy moments you created for me. It was fun.
Please take care of yourselves.
From Tademaru Ichiren’s Twitter.Sorry for this sudden announcement.
Ema, thank you for moving forward with me as part of USOTSUKINAISHO for these four months.
Thank you for crying with me during tough times and laughing with me during happy times.
I have a dream I want to fulfill, I love music, and there are people who believe in me and are waiting for me, so no matter what happens, I’ll keep singing here. I will keep moving forward.
I hope you continue to support USOTSUKINAISHO.
Despite Ichiren now being the only member left in the group, she is determined to continue performing, even alone.
USHIMITSU — a collaborative project between Hashibata Kanari and codomomental, has launched an official account on Twitter. The account has also posted various teasers with music samples from the upcoming project, and something important is expected on October 26. It seems to be a debut performance, and it is most likely going to be some kind of major event, as future attendees are advised to clear their schedules for the entire day.
From the official Twitter.I'm so fed up with these idols quitting over every little thing!
Health issues? Family circumstances?
I'm so sick of them leaving on a slightest whim!
Dangerous girls, dangerous girls, dangerous girls...
Where are the truly dangerous girls?
Shortly after, the first new member of the group was introduced—Enma (ex. Baka wa Shinu Made Naoranai, B.K.S.N, Hissatsu Emomomomo7, and Frigg The Queen Goddess). She is also the designer of the unisex brand MAGDALAS.
From Enma’s Twitter.I don’t want to dig up the past, but I will never forgive anything or anyone, and that’s why I will sing. I will always sing.
Shortly after, a second member was introduced — U-RiCH. She is a trip-hop artist, and you can check out her music here.
syva shared his thoughts on TOKYO TEFUTEFU's recent release "IIIIly":
From syva’s blog.It’s been a little over a month since TOKYO TEFUTEFU released their EP of solo songs. I’d like to share my thoughts on this. To be honest, the idea of an EP of solo songs always seemed a little scary to me. This started when Seireki13ya released their EP of solo songs. If my memory serves me right, almost immediately after its release, the members began to leave the group one after another. I remember being really surprised by this: “What? Why?”. From there, my personal hypothesis was born: people who join idol groups are usually not confident in their ability to work solo, but think they can "make it work" in a group. So I think when it comes to solo songs, most people start to get anxious, and some probably don’t want to do it at all. And maybe some feel disappointed when they hear the final product. Although it’s unlikely to be the sole reason for leaving the group, I feel like it could be one of the triggers. So I was worried. However, it seems that the current members of TOKYO TEFUTEFU didn’t have this issue. I’m glad, really glad. In fact, I’m proud of this EP and believe that, no matter what you compare it to, it will hold its ground. In the end, all the songs turned out to be quite heavy in terms of rock, and surely not every idol group would be able to release something like this. I consider it a miracle that the group has such skilled vocalists, and that’s why I wanted to write about it. In any case, if you haven’t heard this release yet, please listen to at least one song, any of them. By the way, I was in charge of mixing this EP, and most of the work was done in Indonesia. This was my first experience mixing abroad, and I gained new confidence that I can handle it without any problems.
Out of fear of being misunderstood, I speak less and less, and so I usually can only express myself through vague metaphors. And because of that, I’m even harder to understand.
I have to break everything down and simplify it so that my words can be understood.
From Chimura Shifumi’s Twitter.Thinking that the concepts in my head, expressed through my words, will naturally be correctly understood by others is foolishness.
Despite being very emotional, I’m terribly bad at expressing my feelings, and so I continue to suffer, unable to digest them.
“Painful,” “fun” — human emotions are too complex to be expressed in a single word.
The god of words is the measure of those who hear them.
That’s why words are so free and so difficult.
Meanwhile, Not Secured, Loose Ends have begun their new mini-tour titled "I" YUE NO NAGEKI TOUR (which can be roughly translated as "The Lament Born from the Fact that It Is I"). The first performance of the tour took place at the venue Rokudemonai Yoru, which is the location of Kisaragi Megumi’s first collaboration with codomomental (her first work was filming a concert for Shounen ga Milc, who was still known as syam at the time).
Additionally, at one of the recent release events, the members described their new song as "cool," "playful," and "different from 'GENESIS'." As a reminder, the group's next release, "VanilLament," will be out on October 9th.
I translated another interesting and informative article from GESSHIRUI's blog, where the lyricist delves into deep details and intriguing aspects that accompanied the formation of Not Secured, Loose Ends and the work on their first original song:
In the continuation of the article, the author touches upon the peculiarities of the approach to working on the "GENESIS" lyrics, in contrast to Yukueshirezutsurezure songs, the difficulties experienced by the members due to the need to adapt to a new group, and the related behind-the-scene details, about the fundamental difference in the approach to NSLE's activities from "Tsurezure"... You will also learn about the important role Kisaragi Megumi played in the life of Yukueshirezutsurezure from the group's foundation, around which inviolable rule all the group's later activities were built up until its dissolution, and more.“We wanted to change the foundation of the group.”
To be honest, I couldn't fully comprehend what had happened. On January 2, 2021, at the Shibuya Quattro club, Yukueshirezutsurezure disbanded. Yukueshirezutsurezure was the second group founded by codomomental, and they began their activities in December 2015. It was an experimental project based on the concept of "exhaustion and fury." A unique feature of the group was that all the members used scream vocal techniques. From the start, the group experienced many ups and downs. I would like to delve deeper into this topic, but then the text would become too heavy for reading, so today I’d like to focus on what’s current.
Today, I want to talk about the first single of Not Secured, Loose Ends, called "GENESIS."
Since the producer and other members of the production team grew up on Western music, punk, emo, and hardcore, from the moment codomomental INC was founded, you could feel the influence of these genres in our works. Japanese artists singing in English often perform music in the punk/emo/hardcore genre, and naturally, this did not pass by our production team either. Therefore, it wasn't surprising that the group Not Secured, Loose Ends, performing Yukueshirezutsurezure’s songs in English, came into being. Rather, the question arises, why didn’t we do this from the very beginning... Thinking about it, it seems there was a significant influence from envy. This band, which is described as lyrical hardcore, started as a typical hardcore band under the name BLIND JUSTICE, but after rebranding as envy, they gradually evolved into their current style. Perhaps that’s why, when the producer talked about Not Secured, Loose Ends (NSLE), I easily accepted the idea of creating a group in such a format.
Currently, NSLE includes four members: Mei Yui Mei (leader), Higaminari Yuchiomi, Yuzuriha Ouhi, and Kisaragi Megumi. Higaminari Yuchiomi is a newcomer (a very funny, charming, understandable, and show-offy personality, while also so wonderful that a third work featuring her is already on the way). All the other members are leaders of their own groups. However, even this lineup seemed quite logical to me. By the way, as was already mentioned in one of the streams, it was initially planned to be Mei Yui Mei's solo project, and therefore the songs for "OUROARBOROS" were chosen so that she could perform them alone.
And the fact that, due to various circumstances, it was decided that the group would operate with its current lineup... Would it be more appropriate to say "this was natural" or "this was inevitable"? No, it was inevitable. It seems that the demo created by syva changed the group’s fate.
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NuguLast four weeks in codomomental (September 15 - October 13)
On September 28, at the finale of their long-running "YMKWII CHINURU TOUR," Zenbu Kimi no Sei da announced three new singles that will be released monthly.
“Koyubi” will be released on November 20, “MEMAIPOEM” on December 18, and another single, with a title yet to be decided, will be released in mid-January.
The group also announced their next tour, which will begin on January 11 and conclude in early May. No details yet, but it’s known that it will be a joint tour.
From Mary Lust's Twitter.The burden they carry is so large, so immense, that it’s just... wow. But they still keep moving forward, leading everyone. They’re so cool, I love them so much!
In honor of Enma's birthday, USHIMITSU revealed two demo versions of upcoming tracks, followed by another one:
From Enma's Twitter.Thank you for so many birthday wishes.
I felt sad, I felt pain, I wanted to die. I had nothing. That was my life, but in the end, I’m glad to be alive.
Ah, I’m so hungry. Anyway, I’m full of energy now.
Unfortunately, U-RiCH has decided to withdraw from the project.
From U-RiCH's Twitter.I made the decision to follow my dream and turn zero into one by myself, so I ran away
While I was held captive, I really learned a lot and had fun
Thank you for the care you showed me
To those who were looking forward to my activities as an idol — sorry for confusing you with my selfish decision
I will keep doing my best in my own way in various things, so I hope for your support ︎
Several new members were introduced:
Aira (ex-TOKYO OIRAN STORY).
Nan (ex-TRANZEAL and HAJIMENI).
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It seems that this is the complete group lineup for now.
It has also been announced that AYA SOFIA will be in charge of the group's choreography.
USHIMITSU will perform twice on their debut day — in the morning and in the evening. Additionally, their participation in various joint events is already being actively announced.
The usual annual codomomental events held at the end of the year were also announced. Surprisingly, the tweet with this announcement was retweeted by the official KAQRIYOTERROR account. At the moment, it’s confirmed that the group will not be performing at the two Halloween events on October 30 in Nagoya and October 31 in Tokyo. It’s likely they will debut either on November 25 in Tokyo or December 29 in Nagoya (the latter being more likely since it’s announced that all company groups will perform there).
Another general audition for codomomental has been announced. Successfully passing the audition gives a chance to join one of the following groups:
- Zenbu Kimi no Sei da
- TOKYO TEFUTEFU
- Not Secured, Loose Ends
- KAQRIYOTERROR
- futatsuna
- USOTSUKINAISHO
- akugi
- A New Group
The deadline for applications is October 31.
Interestingly, compared to previous auditions, the age limit has shifted: it used to be 14-27 years, but now it's 17-30 years. It was also officially announced that the current activities of futatsuna and USOTSUKINAISHO are in a "pre-debut" phase.
On November 9, Seireki13ya will hold Yowa Minai's birthday concert, where, according to a recent livestream, the birthday girl will present her solo song for the first time.
I’ve tried to compile some interesting facts about Tademaru Ichiren, which were mentioned during the first talk stream of USOTSUKINAISHO, held in mid-June:
- First of all, the concept of the group is expressed by the phrase, "Lies dwell alongside the intimate feelings we wish to conceal — USOTSUKINAISHO (‘Liar’s Secret’)." In the recent audition announcement, it was also described as "a group that expresses complex girlish emotions through the lens of pop music."
- This is how Ichiren describes herself:
My name is Tademaru Ichiren. How should I put it... First of all, I hate losing. I don’t like giving up! In short, I’m really incredibly tenacious. I have a very determined personality, and that’s why I fell in love with codomomental and wanted to join!
- She has such a restless nature that she even claims she can go without sleep.
First of all, I really hate putting things off until tomorrow. No matter what it is, like homework, I couldn’t relax until I finished it right away. I’d even get my summer homework done immediately! I hate being idle. I always want to be doing something, so I’m always doing something, and I want to keep that up in the future. I’m going to keep growing!
- Her motto: "From thought to action, immediately!"
Ino Tadataka is my favorite historical figure. I decided that I want to be like him! After all, he took action without thinking about his age, didn’t he? Even at an old age, he was inspired to travel all around Japan. Although he couldn’t complete it, he still took action, didn’t he? And I decided that I want to be like him! From thought to action, immediately!
- However, her character often led to misunderstandings with those around her.
How should I put it... In the past, when I would say things like this, I often got laughed at, because some people just don’t agree with the idea that if you put in the effort, you can achieve anything, right? But in this agency, my senpais and everyone else always accept me, and so I constantly think, “Ah, thank you for letting me be here!”
- She had a fateful encounter with the idol world during middle school.
As for why I wanted to become an idol... In middle school, I went through what was probably the toughest time in my life, and during that time, the thing that saved me was music. The idols I watched on YouTube back then were shining so brightly, and even though I couldn’t see them in person, only through the screen, they still shone so brightly... That really encouraged me, and I wanted to become someone like that for others!
- However, she didn’t immediately manage to make this dream come true.
When I was a child, I couldn’t even imagine performing on stage. So I’ve surpassed my past self.
I think I had the desire for it. I had this sort of yearning to stand out, but back then, it stayed just a desire. I couldn’t channel it properly. But now I’ve fully given it free rein.
- Ichiren expressed what she sees as her goal within the group.
And here are a few more small facts:As for my personal goal, music has supported me a lot throughout my life, so now I want to become someone who makes people happy through music. And after watching the performances of my senpais, whom I met in this agency, the thing that moved me most recently was when I went to Shimokitazawa Flowers Loft to learn from the "Tefutefu" performance, and at that time, Ouhi-san really blew me away. I wasn’t feeling particularly emotional at that moment, but the tears just started flowing. When I saw it, I couldn’t stop the tears, and I thought, "I want to be able to deliver performances like that someday..." That’s what I decided! So from now on, I’ll be working hard to become someone who can make our beloved fans happy through the music I love, so I hope for your support!
- Ichiren practiced kendo for a time and even wanted to become a professional, "until she realized it wasn’t possible." In general, throughout her life, she has had various aspirations.
- Her favorite school subject was biology. Specifically, she enjoyed dissection. According to her, while it’s a bit creepy, she really liked doing delicate work and deeply concentrating on completing complex tasks that require a thorough and careful approach.
- She claims that she lacks a "sense of taste in art," which she has to compensate for with sheer effort, by analyzing other people’s works and trying to learn from them. However, she says that she does have a "sense of taste in language," which she describes as "the ability to imagine what other people are feeling."
- At first, Ichiren was afraid to express her thoughts and ask questions that could provoke conflict, but through her activities in the group, she developed this skill, which is crucial for a leader.
- Her favorite color is red (the color of her costume).
- She was born in January.
When I was going through a really tough time, codomomental’s music saved me, and I thought, "Maybe I should keep living a little longer?" That’s what led me to apply for the audition
I want to save someone with my singing too.
I want to bring smiles to as many people as possible — that’s my goal!
From Tademaru Ichiren’s Twitter.After joining codomomental, I experienced the warmth and happiness of being loved, and I met many people who became dear to my heart
Because there are people who cherish me, I've come to feel that I must cherish my own life as well.
Recently, USOTSUKINAISHO held the group's first online performance, at the end of which Ichiren gave an important address to the fans. She shared her feelings about the difficult situation the group is in and talked about what gave her the determination to keep performing, even on her own. You can check out my translation of her passionate and emotional speech below:
Unfortunately, the release of Not Secured, Loose Ends’ second single ("VanilLament"), which was scheduled for release on October 9th, has been postponed indefinitely due to production issues.
I, Yuchiomi, even though I’m so assertive on stage, can’t even make eye contact with the cashier at the konbini and shyly mumble, “One set of chopsticks, please”... (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ) I need to become more sociable (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ)
From Higaminari Yuchiomi’s Twitter.Late at night, I suddenly felt like going to the konbini, so I went outside, and even though it wasn’t that dark, the stars were so clear! Maybe you could even see the Big Dipper! Though I’m not sure!
I, Yuchi, love looking at the stars Someday, I want to become a star too (a superstar)!
From Tademaru Ichiren’s Twitter.After the NSLE concert, during a break, I suddenly felt like trying to practice screaming, so I tried it and smashed my teeth against the mic, almost howling from the pain ( ◜ཫ◝)
Not long ago, I released my translation of Mary Lust’s solo song, "Nil∴":
If you’ve already checked it out, you might have been surprised by the song’s unusually oppressive nature. Now you can find out what caused this — I translated GESSHIRUI's blog post, where the lyricist details the crazy circumstances surrounding the song’s creation, as well as some rather dark aspects of Mary Lust’s past:
In the continuation of the article... Uh... Let’s just say it’s the craziest thing I’ve ever translated."The problem with Mary Lust is also a deeply rooted illness that has haunted her since birth."
If you search the internet for “I want to die,” a hotline for psychological support appears on the page. I’ve never called it, but I hope it helps someone. Lately, I, GESSHIRUI, have been working on several projects. When it involves multiple artists, I start going crazy. What I mean is: when I’m working on, say, an album for one group, I can focus solely on that group and think only about them. But when work for other artists comes in, I don’t know how to keep my sanity.
Speaking of what happens in such cases, one of the symptoms is that I start writing random texts aimlessly. This is probably substitute behavior (I wonder if such a term exists?). I don’t know what to call it, but to avoid working on music and songs, I begin doing something else. Then, as a form of withdrawal, I start cleaning around me. Actually, it’s not even cleaning; it’s more like organizing. Normally, I don’t pay attention to it, but when I’m haunted by the need to write something, I begin aligning the items on my desk at a certain angle, checking if there are any stray hairs, sorting through documents that catch my eye, and on top of that, blocking all the information that comes into my field of vision. For example, this doesn’t just apply to documents, but even the text on product packaging — I start to feel an odd sense that they’re “watching me.” To the point where I feel like I have OCD. So, I start hiding all of it. And once I’ve generally finished with that and realize there’s nothing more I can do, I can finally face the songs head-on. It feels like a sickness.
Today, I want to talk about “Nil∴,” Mary Lust's solo song from TOKYO TEFUTEFU's mini-album of solo songs — “IIIIly.”
I can’t avoid writing about this. It’s not that I don’t want to; it’s just hard to confront this subject directly. With this realization, I’ve been working on my projects lately, but it seems the time has come.
Let me say upfront that this article is so emotionally sensitive that I ask only those who truly want to read it to continue. As I write this paragraph, I’m laughing, but further on, there won’t be much to laugh about. I’ll just be writing, facing something in my heart head-on, so I don’t think I’ll be able to show any restraint. So, if you decide to read it, be prepared. Although, it’s just my personal perspective.
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Surely, even if you know nothing about it, this song will still remain just as beautiful, but this article touches on things that I cannot tell you myself, and even though it may be difficult for you to accept, at the same time, I want you to know about it, so I’d be happy if you read it ☺︎︎︎︎
From Mary Lust's Twitter.It's gradually getting colder, and this brings about a certain painful feeling that most closely matches the "temperature" of my heart. Dazzling and bright things are difficult for me.
From GESSHIRUI’s blog.For the first time in a very long time, I’ve encountered a work that truly touched my heart, and I’m very surprised — by my heart, which was moved, by the work itself that managed to do that, and by this small approach. By just slightly changing the way of emotional impact, the world changes its colors.
From Chimura Shifumi's Twitter.When you get used to the warmth and happiness right in front of your eyes, you stop noticing their value and importance. And when you realize it, it’s always too late. That’s why I live reminding myself every day: truly recognize and understand it, because you are the only one who can cherish your precious world.
NucleARtyom
NuguI'm going to say something I wouldn't normally say:
I'm risking my life for this place,
And I hope you'll risk yours with me.
NucleARtyom
NuguNucleARtyom
NuguLike a toy tossed away once they've had their fill of playing,
Like an unfinished tower of blocks that gets demolished,
So does my heart tighten in my chest.
NucleARtyom
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