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I was starting to feel better but recently I've felt myself starting to fall again. I shouldn't be like this, I should be happy and carefree. I have every reason to not feel like I'm worthless. But I'm not happy, and those thoughts I once had are coming back. I don't know what to do.
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I just discovered this thread. And I love this already :hearteu:
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i was a passanger involved in a car accident and i'm still shaken up right now. I'm thankfully (along with everyone there) okay but scared and visably shaken. and i don't know what to do. it's been repeating in my head for hours now and cars screeching sorta makes me jump up in fear.
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I'm tired of everything and need to get this out
I've never had a mood swing that intense before. I couldn't stop crying or even breathe. Thank god, for that app and prayer. Because of them I was able to calm down...but
Realizing how empty I am and reading all this stuff about depression really set me off. I realized that everything I experience is just temporary happiness and this crushing feeling will just come back again. I was just congratulating myself for going months without feeling like this. But alas. I'm just tired, I want another break from this. Even if the swings happen once a week, I'm just so fucking sick and tired of them. Give me permanent happiness and peace already.
Realizing how empty I am and reading all this stuff about depression really set me off. I realized that everything I experience is just temporary happiness and this crushing feeling will just come back again. I was just congratulating myself for going months without feeling like this. But alas. I'm just tired, I want another break from this. Even if the swings happen once a week, I'm just so fucking sick and tired of them. Give me permanent happiness and peace already.
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please don't respond but i feel so drained tired and unmotivated. it's shit but it's life.
why are people like this? why is it so unfair? i worked so hard, i really tried my best. i really just want to be happy.
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I was feeling really down these days for no reason and I have these stupid thoughts that depress me more
It seems that every time of the year for four years my depression gets worse , looked it up and it's seasonal related disorder, it really sucks that I can't do anything about it , also no one to talk to about how I am feeling these days
crying yesterday helped me feel better I feel I let out all these emotions
It seems that every time of the year for four years my depression gets worse , looked it up and it's seasonal related disorder, it really sucks that I can't do anything about it , also no one to talk to about how I am feeling these days
crying yesterday helped me feel better I feel I let out all these emotions
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No one cares about me. I have no impact. Maybe soon I can end it.
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Ranting is the only thing that gives me relief when I have such strong emotions out of no where so...
I hate the feeling of knowing I have no real friends, knowing they won’t care when I’m gone. But it’s all my fault, I can’t even maintain a relationship with anyone. I hate this. I miss my irl so much and it’s taken such a toll on me. They were the only people I could to about stuff like this and now they’re gone. I hate myself so much. I’m such a fuck up. I need to get help, I want to leave all of this but I can’t. I have too much commit. But once that commit is gone who knows? I’m so scared that when I’m done with things to preoccupy my self with, I’ll just die. I’m so scared. But all the emotions keeps building up. I know I’ll be fine by tomorrow and today was just a low point but I hate feeling this way. It’s just an emotion spat but god do I feel like absolute shit rn.
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GuestHow are you doing now? That's terrifying! I'm glad that everyone wasn't hurt or worse. The only thing I can suggest is if you can, see a counselor to talk about it and help you handle those feelings so they don't overwhelm you. Hopefully you were able to do that since you posted. I'm sorry it took so long for me to reply here but I'm going to explain why in a separate post. Sending lots of cyber hugs if you don't mind those!
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GuestHello! I should first apologize for having been away so long from here especially since I was the OP. Truth is, I got hit hard with a rare illness, Miller Fisher Syndrome, that made it hard for me to move my legs, feet, and hands. Nearly was paralyzed from it and had to step down from my position for a bit. That put me in a bad place for awhile mentally but... I got through it! Somehow, amazingly enough.
Now? Well, I can walk around the house without a cane where I needed it always before and I'm back to being a cute Junior mod. It'll be a year before I'm back to normal but I'm working hard to get there!
Now? Well, I can walk around the house without a cane where I needed it always before and I'm back to being a cute Junior mod. It'll be a year before I'm back to normal but I'm working hard to get there!
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Ever since my physical health started taking a spiral, I've noticed my mental health has again. I went twenty-seven years without health issues, but now that I'm getting them I'm really starting to hate myself. I feel like I'm doing something wrong and I'm frustrated there's nothing I can do about it. This is all new to me so it's just hard to accept right now. I hope it gets better.
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The topic of suicide always seems to put me in a weird place for a while. I get distant, quieter, and I just want to be alone for a while. It isn't from just a fandom standpoint. It's always been present in my life; my mother has severe bipolar depression and I remember her being hospitalized countless times throughout my childhood because she said she was going to kill herself. I've had suicidal thoughts for a long time as well, starting as when I was as young as ten years old due to bullying. So whenever that topic comes up I tend to check out for a while emotionally and a bit mentally, and that's where I'm at right now. I just need everything to sort itself out soon.
This person that is in my life right now is just making me feel so bad, like everytime i'm with them i feel like i need to fit to what they want, what they need, but i'm so afraid to stop talking to them, of being alone without someone to talk to
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i'm gonna go crazy in this house
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I still feel out of place and like I can't think straight. Being at work today made it even worse. I wish I could just lay low for a while but I'm afraid to distance myself.
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Dealing with depression is already bad but on top of that living with a hateful bitch of a sister is too much , I really try to avoid toxic people as I can but
It's so fucking awful when the person causing you problems lives with you and on a daily basis act always mean for no reason
It's so fucking awful when the person causing you problems lives with you and on a daily basis act always mean for no reason
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I'm always so lonely. I feel like no one cares about me. That I could disappear and no one would notice. This feeling of loneliness never truly leaves, I'm just happy for a minute before it comes slamming right back down on me. I don't think I've experienced real happiness since middle school and god I just want that time back.
Talking to be people makes me so anxious these days. I'm just fucking terrified but idk what of. Interaction? Rejection?
My mental health has severely deteriorated over the course of these past months, it's best if I leave this all behind. I can't stand it
Talking to be people makes me so anxious these days. I'm just fucking terrified but idk what of. Interaction? Rejection?
My mental health has severely deteriorated over the course of these past months, it's best if I leave this all behind. I can't stand it
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I can feel my mental health deteriorating again. I just want to go hide for a while, not deal with anyone or anything. I feel like I want to cry or scream, or maybe even both. Also feel like I just want to sleep. I think I'm going to lay low for a little while, let myself be quieter and face whatever it is head on instead of trying to push it away.